December 8th 2024

Doing my first estrogen shot tomorrow. Feels weird to think aobut, even if ive been on hormones for a few months.

found my old phone, the one i had between 2018-2021. never propperly transfered the photos so i forgoten what was on there. feld weird to see my face before i started repressing, and brought up stuff. remembered some time in feburay 2019 going onto the PP informed consent HRT page, remembered getting my nails painted fand feeling .°˖✧good.°˖✧ about it. not to mention that i reguraly went on subreddits like r/traa and egg_irl (still cis tho i swear)

i repressed during covid.

in the photos (what few ones i took) you could see the light leave my eyes instantly.

anyway, im here now at least. i dont know if the old me, the one in the phone, would believe we'd get this far. but she would be happpy that we did.

- beanbun